You died of such pride to know need help. You ended your pain that way keeping your pride pure and untouched. Wish I could share it. Your pain. Brother. Short but enormous life you had. You brought the entire family back together in such peace and love. Look what you gave us. Look what you left us. You should be proud like you have been. I like to embrace your happiest moments. I like to embrace the life you had left me. Forgive me. Forgive yourself. Forgive dad and mom. Forgive the life you had lived. Be free and shine like you always were. Be what you wished. You brave man. I love you.